In Control

In Control

It was August of '07.

I was in labor with my first child, I started Thursday and
didn't have her until Saturday. All while I was in labor,
I cried for my Mommy, the doctor, and even something for the
pain.

Finally, Saturday morning I was ready, I was still hollering for
the doctor. They wheeled me into the delivery room, I looked
around, and still no doctor, finally he came in, I felt
relieved, but something happened, my baby got stuck.

I was scared, afraid. I started crying for my mommy. The doctor
had to pull my child from me. I didn't hear her, I couldn't
hear my baby cry.

I cried out what was wrong, the doctor had asked one nurse to
rush out and get another doctor, I still didn't hear a baby cry.

I was still crying for my mommy. Finally another doctor rushed
in, it was like one of the scariest moments in my life,
everything stood still for a moment and then something happened,

I called the Lord, I asked Him to help me, I cried Lord have
mercy on my baby, let my baby live. Take me not my child.

Finally, the doctor asked a nurse what time it was, it was 11:22
a.m. My baby was pronounced dead. He turned around wiping the
tears from his eyes, and I knew what he was going to say, and I
just started praying Lord help me.

And before the doctor can tell me, she started crying.
A miracle had happened. My child was born at 11:00 and
pronounced dead at 11:22 a.m. and before 11:23 came back to me.

It was nothing but the grace of God.
I feel like that was my test.
The Lord showed me that Mommy can't do it, not even the doctors,
but He has ALL powers in His hands.

I realized that no one can acknowledge God but you yourself.
Everyone needs to know the Lord for themselves, and for me, I
honestly thought that I knew the Lord. My mother, she's a
preacher, I was practically raised in the church, but yet, God
had to remind me to go on my own faith.

Isn't it amazing how the Lord reminds us that He is in control
of everything? Through good times, bad times, and even through
our grief and pains.
Thank you Gail Norton for your life story
Jan Bagwell
God Bless !!